If you don’t know me well, I’m a bit of a romantic. I believe in fate, love at first sight, and that everything happens for a reason. Actually, I’m really just a believer. My boyfriend and I were talking yesterday about how I am open to the possibility of LOTS of different ideas. There isn’t much that I will shut down or dismiss, in the way of theories/ideas/conspiracies. I feel like I have lots of examples in my life of these things, but right now I’m going to tell you about how this blog proved that everything happens for a reason.
Like Lightning had its first birthday in July – exciting right? A year of learning and working hard. I spent the year learning not only about blogging but also about myself. I was just starting to get into the groove of writing from my heart. The possibility of people being negative or not liking what I had to say was becoming less scary.
Because of this milestone, I decided to switch my hosting company and renew the domain name. That might be boring blogger talk, but I promise it’s important to the story.
Somehow in the process of the switching and renewing, my ENTIRE website got deleted. The whole thing was gone, just like that… Of course, I still haven’t really gotten an answer about how this could have happened in the first place. Neither hosting company can give me any form of backups they may have had beforehand.
You’re probably thinking to yourself right about now “If you were smart Taylor, you would have had back ups”. To that my response is: I did! I figured that while losing everything is scary and nerve-wracking, it would be fine in the end because for months I had been backing up my website with a plug-in service.
An Extra Obstacle
Here’s the funny but not so funny thing: all of the backup files that I had stored were somehow incomplete. To get my website running, I needed to upload the backup files to an online service that live support could access in order to restore the website content from the previous year. After hours of chatting with live support, and finally getting everything uploaded, it took only about 2 minutes for the operator to tell me that the files were incomplete, and the restore wouldn’t go through. He tried anyways to see if even partial content could be restored, but nothing worked. I thanked him for trying and left Starbucks.
I sat in my car, crying out of frustration. It felt like a whole year hadn’t even existed, it was just wiped away in the blink of an eye. I had put my heart and soul into writing those posts and learning everything I could about blogging. I didn’t understand why this was happening to me.
Distraught, I called my boyfriend to tell him about everything, and after awhile listening to me vent he said, “Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.” Honestly, at first I was kind of frustrated, not so much with him, but with the saying. I couldn’t see how my entire website vanishing and having to start over from scratch would be a good thing. I have always been the kind of person that believes everything happens for a reason, but I was mad about losing all the hard work I had done. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized he was right, and here’s why…
Overwhelmed and Unmotivated
For months, I didn’t even look at the blog. I was feeling incredibly overwhelmed about anything blogging related. I knew I loved writing, and I was passionate about sharing my ideas and experiences with the world. But I had no idea what direction I wanted to go in, or what I even wanted to write about. I couldn’t figure out what kind of look I wanted to go for, what kind of readers I wanted to attract, or what kinds of things I truly wanted to say. I was constantly worrying myself about things like “What if people don’t like my opinions?” or “What if people think my blog looks cheesy and bad?”
One day I was thinking to myself about what I wanted to accomplish in my life, and why I even wanted to start a blog in the first place. I thought about how passionate I am about changing the world, and if everything happens for a reason, the stumbling across the idea of starting my own blog wasn’t an accident. I was excited again, and feeling ready to tackle the obstacles and feelings I had been facing.
Everything Happens For A Reason
So with that, feeling inspired and creative, and I started writing down all of my ideas and making changes that I had been coming up with. I was still feeling overwhelmed with getting things to where I wanted them. It was hard to stay on track and focus when there were so many different changes in different areas that I wanted to make.
Then – poof – everything was suddenly gone. But because everything happens for a reason, I am able to start fresh now. I’m able to build my blog up into what I envisioned. I can stay focused and keep working at it so that I can accomplish my goals and dreams.
Starting from scratch means that my posts and the purpose of my blog aren’t scattered every which way. I have a clear idea of where I’m headed, and Like Lightning will reflect that. I’m able to completely revamp the look of Like Lightning without feeling overwhelmed about all of the other things that I wanted to change as well. Now I can focus on following the big dreams that I had for Like Lightning in the first place.
The Moral of The Story
I easily could have given up on Like Lightning. Just thrown in the towel and said “Well, we had a good run”. Instead I decided that I would work even harder, and continue on towards making my dreams a reality. I know it won’t always be easy, but that everything happens for a reason. So when it seems like things might not be going my way or like there’s an impossible obstacle in my way, I can find my way through.
I’m not going to give up on my passions or what makes me happy, and neither should you! If you’re feeling like you just can’t work through something, or maybe you’re stuck between a rock and a hard place, just remember: everything happens for a reason. And if you ever need help, or advice, or just someone to help you work it out, I’m a great listener! Just send an email to firstname.lastname@example.org, or leave a comment below.
Until next week 🙂